I worked up the courage to approach the girl from my class who mentioned having a trans friend. It turns out their friend isn’t from the area. I was hoping to get information like who the good therapists were (or which to avoid) and what doctors and other places were good for trans people. I went ahead and gave her my information to pass along to her friend. Never got a reply. So far, not having very much luck making trans friends.
On a cheerier note, my girlfriend and I had some really difficult conversations and I feel like the relationship may be able to survive my transition. She is becoming more accepting of me. She still is having a hard time dealing with it but that’s probably expected.
And some more bad news although to not too great an extent. Without being too specific, both because people probably don’t want to know and my own reluctance to give out that kind of information, I’ve been having trouble finding some of the services that I feel are necessary to be able to better pass as female. I didn’t feel like this town was too small until I started looking for stuff to help my transition.
I was in class, Literature by Women, the topic was Gender. A girl raised her hand and started making her point. Then she started talking about one of her close friends “[something something] boy who used to be a girl.” If I hadn’t become proficient in hiding my emotions it would have become apparent to the entire class that I was very excited to hear it.
As awkward as it will be, I fully intend to make an effort to meet that person. I’m excited and scared at the same time. I was unable to talk to the girl with the trans friend after class. We got let out late and I had to rush across campus. It’s not a terribly large school but finding her would be nearly impossible. I have to wait til Tuesday to talk to her. I honestly have no idea how to proceed. I can not ruin this opportunity. I am really scared that they won’t talk with me. Last time I found a possible trans person I was unable to make contact. I don’t want to repeat that.
Additionally, and possibly as important, I began making calls for a new therapist. The last one certainly did not leave the bar very high. I don’t have an appointment yet but I hope to soon, possibly within the week.