Day one: on this arbitrarily chosen day I am cast out into a strange world with only a few tools to aid in my survival in this world called Kalinea. Was there anything before this day that was significant? Why do I not have any sense of history to myself?

There is another person here named Seth. He drowned when a tunnel got flooded. I’ve only seen him a few times since then, moving around. I won’t be talking about him again.

I tested my ax on some trees and collected it’s wood. This might come in handy later. I tore down another tree and encountered a slime-like creature. It attacked me so I killed it.

I feel compelled to dig. I carved myself out a hideout. Maybe I’ll make a password for it. I found a natural cave structure and started digging it toward my own hide out. Soon I created a large underground passage straight through a rather large hill. Now the only thing left to do is go down.


Night One: I have been down here a long time. When I went out I realized it had gotten dark. I was attacked by ghouls. I see no purpose in fighting the dead so I flee into my tunnel. Some follow me in but they are soon dealt with.

I continue to dig. Now I’ve learned to avoid underground pools. It’s not long before I get the hang of where I’m going.

Day two: I ventured back out of the tunnels to find more supplies. More slime creatures attacked me. I killed them. I discovered that the remains of the creatures can be used to bring me light. This will come in handy in the darkness.


I dug all day. I’m heading back out now; it must be near night fall.

Night: I went out to get more wood and found a star that had fallen from the sky. I don’t know what I can use it for so I’ll keep it in my pocket. I’m heading back down so I can go further, deeper, to whatever awaits me.

Much down here is filled with stone. It takes so long to break through.


I find myself obsessively correcting the harsh mistakes that mother nature makes in her designs. I will make this cave my cave.

I haven’t been outside in so long I don’t know if it’s day or night. I will run out of materials for torches sometime and have to head out.

I found a fish. I liberated it into a larger pool of water. It seems happy.


Worm like creatures dwell down here, giant long creatures that attack you. I killed it but it was a terrible fight. The only way to know what way they come is to let them attack you then try to hit it first. It took quite a few hits to tear it apart.

This cave here has a heart. It just floats there like a stained glass window frozen in time. I don’t know why this cave needs a heart so I keep moving. My new tunnel needs to be swam to. It’s my way of keeping out the ghouls.

I created a forge for myself with an anvil, a stove, a workbench and other necessary tools. I put up a sign so everyone knows it’s “my forge”. There’s a grave there but I don’t remember dying. “Why do we pity the dead?” it asks.


I tunneled my way back out. Now my tunnel has 4 entrances. It gets dark underneath. Sometimes I only know it’s night by the sound of the dead wailing as they hunt for me in the tunnels above.

I’ve begun letting the earth decide which way I move, traveling through earth because it’s softer than stone. I still clear some of the stone though since I use it for construction.

Water – water everywhere. It becomes difficult to navigate around it. I make sure to keep my distance. We don’t want another flooding.

Day or Night too long to count, I have reached an area made entirely of stone. Digging through will take twice as long, but there’s no tell how long it is around. I must keep going further.

The tunnels in this area are getting smaller. I’ve found it difficult to dig through so much ground so I use tighter patterns. We’re making amazing progress. We will be there in no time… but where?

I, on occasion, discover large underground caverns. They are terrible discoveries. Smaller caverns are easier to integrate into my design but the larger ones take more to light and more effort to navigate. At least I’ve made tremendous progress.


I discovered a cavern with glowing mushrooms. Lots of water in this area, more enemies to contend with.

The area beyond the mushrooms is no different than that above it. Things have gone back to normal it seems. I haven’t been back to the surface. My last trip gathered enough materials for a long stay. There are slimes underground too, and they provide me with lots of fire.

Lava – lava everywhere. I don’t want to touch it. My skills in avoiding the water have aided me here. I can’t believe how far I’ve come and yet it seems so natural.

The lava has become increasingly difficult to navigate just as the water before it but I’ve managed thus far and I will not fail.


I’ve seen hell. I saw it with my own eyes. I witnessed the imps and demon’s that inhabit it. I have retreated for now but will continue in the morning, or whatever can be counted as morning. I think I will trek to my forge and fashion something to keep me safe.

Equipment forged, including my shiny new armor. I feel like a bright, easy target. Oh well. Onward, to face whatever awaits me…

I Just Beat Zelda II

I was never able to beat Zelda II as a kid. I wasn’t good enough. I’ve known the first half of the game pretty well for a long time. The furthest I had ever gotten before today was the second to the last palace. I never knew that fairies went through locked Doors so I never tried it. After learning that the temple wasn’t so hard.

So finally I was able to make the difficult and infuriating trek to the final dungeon. Which ended up being surprisingly easy. Once you get the hang of killing ghosts, the rest is not falling in the holes. When I saw the final dungeon I got so excited I stopped and took a picture of it. I had never seen it before, and it was quite a site.

Getting past the palace on the other hand is not a simple task. It is sadistically designed and is a maze. You travel a long way just to find a dead end with almost no hope of making it back to the right path. Luckily I’m patient and I mapped out the way as I went so that I could find all the dead ends. After that it was just a matter of checking every way. Which was easy enough albeit a bit tedious. I was exhausted by the time I got to the bird. That’s how they get you. After fighting your way to the boss, your mind and fingers are defeated. After getting to the boss 3 or 4 times, I killed him(or her, etc).


But Link’s Shadow took me, I had so little life that I couldn’t fight on. My fingers ached and I wanted to stop but I had waited 20 years for this fight, I needed to hit him at least once before I went to bed. I persevered. And it turns out, I beat him. with half my life left and enough magic to use life if I needed to, he died. I took him down when I thought I had only a small hope of even hitting him, based on my first attempt.

I couldn’t believe it. I had beaten the game. My favorite game. It’s complete. I’m going to replay it today to see if I can finish the game in a single sitting. I’m so excited!

Rocket Mario 2

I’ve been holding onto this game for almost a year now. A few of us had talked about forming a dev group and upgrading to Game Maker Studio to make a handful of quick games. One idea that was thrown out was to sprite swap this game so that we could release it as it’s own original game. But then that didn’t happen. The dev group just never formed. So, now without any alterations in the past year I give you(not that anyone will play it), Rocket Mario 2:

Part II

The game is just like the first one but there is optional 2 player and a couple bosses. It’s as short as the first one but it’s also harder. I added infinite lives which makes things go much faster. You don’t have to master each level to beat this game. You just keep trying til it’s done. You can download it here or by clicking on the picture above. Some browsers complain about how the game hasn’t been downloaded much and that’s because well, no one plays my games, and it’s new.

If you beat it, don’t erase the rocketmario.sav so you can access the challenge levels. Just click on the star that appears on the title page and good luck; I still have trouble on the challenge levels. Why are they so hard?

(if anyone plays it please leave a comment with your opinion or thoughts so I can keep them in mind if I ever get bored and make a third Rocket Mario)


               It was two or three days before I asked her to move in with me but around five before she actually did and in that time we had discussed what would happen, and where we would go. I let her choose whether or not to move to Brownsville, and she chose to because she wanted to move somewhere soon and it was quicker.

               She had told me exactly what she wanted me to do for her before she even came over. She told me she wanted to sleep in my arms so I had a pillow right beside mine when she arrived. She told me I would need to hug her often because she hadn’t gotten many so I hugged her the moment I had her in my room, and many times since.

               After she arrived, we talked for a while, mostly about her trip and the mutual friend that introduced us. Then during a lull I moved beside her and put my arms around her. I barely let go of her for the next couple days. Both because she had asked me to, and because I needed the affection too.

               She was tired so we went almost straight to bed and fell asleep not long after. We slept a lot those first two days. Her more than me, but I didn’t want to leave her so I neglected everything I could have been doing to hold her in my arms while she slept and she would row over and I’d kiss her cheek and she’d smile.

               We got along really well really fast and things were affectionate from the beginning. I started to care for her quickly. I wanted her to be stay with me, and be more than just my roommate, but she didn’t want that and to this day, I think she is still planning to move away from me some day. But for now, I’m trying to enjoy what time I do have.

               We both have our problems. She gets depressed, as I do, at times. And sometimes she shuts me out. Unfortunately, my issues make me needy for attention and affection. That’s a tough combination. My crying makes her want to hide which makes me cry more. And I think anyone who has read my blog knows how often I cry.

               Several things have made me cry recently. I cried on her our first day here because I was afraid of hurting her, because I was afraid that she would hurt me (by leaving) and because I was afraid that I was no good for her. Even with those reasons, I cry less with her here. She’s actually been good for me, even if she thinks she hasn’t.

               It’s hard to really describe our relationship. She says she doesn’t know how to and doesn’t want to be in a committed relationship. She also says that we are, “more than friends” and that we have a “dysfunctional relationship” and she even once called herself my partner, though as part of a weird joke, and later evaded the question when I asked about it.

               I can surely agree with all of that. Our relationship does feel like more than friends, and she is kind of my partner, even if she runs away from the subject at times. I could kind of agree with the dysfunctional, except, it works for us. If it’s dysfunctional, it’s dysfunctional in a completely functional way, if that’s even possible. I don’t think this relationship could work with everyone, but it works for us.

               And now here we are. I am now in a non-committed, undefined, more-than-friends and possibly dysfunctional relationship. But it works for us and I like it.