Life sucks sometimes. I have nearly zero friends RL. I look horrible(too masculine). Two of my few online friends are pushing me away. I get lonely but no one wants me. I’m just an undesirable wretch.
I make it all worse by allowing myself to have delusions like that someone might want me if I wait around long enough or that someone cares for me when they don’t. Those are specific cases; don’t view it generally.
I am broken. and sad.